How do you continue when the grief is so fresh in your mind? I’m not advocating that everything stops, but it’s definitely not easy to continue on as though nothing has changed.
For those who don’t know, I lost a friend and co-worker this weekend. I had only known him for 6 months, but he had already become a very good friend to me. Zac was selfless, caring, and fun to be around. His irreverent attitude about nearly anything was a breath of fresh air in this world wherein everything is taken so seriously that no one enjoys their days. He stood up for those who had no one to stand up for them. He was a good guy. I enjoyed the conversations we had, and I enjoyed the cigars we smoked together.
I know that we are to pray that the Lord’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven, and that our Father is sovereign in all things. I’m not saying that God screwed up on this one. My faith is stronger than that, thanks to Him. But I miss Zac already. I miss him terribly.
As the tears spring to my eyes, I am reminded that he wouldn’t have wanted us to dwell on so sad a topic. On the other hand, he would have felt our loss just as deeply if we had been together upon losing a good friend.
Those of you, who are the praying type, please pray for his family in this. It can’t be easy to survive your son…especially when he was only in his mid-late 20’s. Please pray for those who are left, and who mourn his passing. Thank you.
I will most certainly be praying for Zac’s family, and for you, Chris. Your post brought tears to my eyes, and I didn’t even know him–so I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. You are certainly in my prayers…
Thank you, Megan. Your prayers mean a lot to me, as do the prayers of everyone I’ve spoken with today.
Zac’s parents came by today, which brought the grief back afresh. My boss had never met them, but when he introduced himself to them as Ray, Zac’s mother hugged Ray and said, “he loved you so much, Ray. He talked about you all the time, and he loved you a lot. He loved everyone here. He loved working here, and he loved you all.” It still shakes me up a little thinking about it.
Ray and I went out to lunch today, and people just walked up to us and said, “I’m sorry about Zac, guys. It’s horrible that he’s gone.” That’s the kind of person Zac was. He was known, and he was loved. Like I said, I’ve only known him for 6 months, and I miss him. Some of these people have known Zac since he was born. I can’t even imagine how they feel.
I’m doing alright, though. Thank you for your prayers. I’ll post about something good in a little while. I am not normally a “down” kind of guy, as you well know. Nothing pulls me from sadness like happiness, and thank the Lord, there’s always something to be happy about.
I’m so sorry, Chris… I’ll definitely be praying too, for you and for Zac’s family.
It truly is hard to maintain the balance in knowing how to keep going sometimes. I know that feeling all too well. Praise God that He is faithful to us, no matter what the circumstances.
You are in my prayers.
Chris,
My prayers are with you and especially with Zac’s family.
Eddie
Thank you. It’s been rough, but as always, it’s getting better. :)