Not So Famous…

This has been an interesting week.  There’s a lot been going on in my head that I probably shouldn’t put out on the Internet for all the world to see.  It started with me being sick, as I said before.  Being sick is nothing new for me, but this was a rough one, because this week was rough as well.  I’ve not been in the best of moods, so I probably over-reacted to things that happened, but some of it turned out all right.  I’m really making a mess of things, aren’t I? Basically, all’s well that ends well, and I think this week is ending pretty well.

I’m taking tomorrow off, ostensibly for skiing, but it’s shaping up to be a pretty white Friday, as Fridays go. Lots of snow in the air and on the road, and that makes for a pretty miserable skiing trip, what with chains, goggles and no visibility.  So Kim and I will likely not be going skiing after all.  I’m still taking the vacation day, however…I have some things around the house I want to get done, and I’d like a day off work to rest and enjoy my weekend.  This cold I had is still lingering on, and I’d like to kill it.  Killing it means relatively stressless days, and that’s what I plan on having this weekend.  :)

Of course, I just got a new toy, so that may raise the stress levels of my weekend significantly.  Lately, getting a new toy has been more stress than it used to be.  From blowing up speakers to having power supplies poop out on me, my hobbies have been less therapeutic than once they were.  What is this new toy, you ask?  Well, I’ll tell you.

For quite some time, my friends have been making fun of my TV.  It works, mind you, and the picture is not bad.  It takes a little bit to warm up, and its exterior design is somewhat…dated.  You see, this is a hand-me-down TV.  My stepfather gave me his old TV when he got a new one, and I very much appreciate it.  My prior TV had blown speakers, and the remote was absolutely horrid.  However, I must mention that this TV was purchased in the 1970’s.  Now, that does not mean it is not a good TV…on the contrary!  This TV was more than stellar for its time.  Right now I have a PS2, XBox, VCR, and Computer hooked up to it, and it has performed its job quite well.  I’ve never seen a better computer picture on a TV, and that’s saying quite a bit.  (TV’s were never designed to display as high a resolution as a computer monitor, which explains the high prices of computer monitors vs. TV’s.)  I must tell you also that this TV actually says, “Television/Monitor” on it, so it was designed to be more than a TV.  It was designed with the types of things I have hooked up to it in mind!

That being said, it’s past its prime.  I desire a better picture using my computer.  I actually would like to be able to play video games and surf the internet on my television, since I have a computer hooked up to it.  I would like to be able to have a better picture with DVD’s and such.  So for Christmas, I asked my grandmother for a TV.  And she agreed.  (All jokes about me being spoiled are old…I’ve heard them all…and yeah, I’m spoiled.)  :)  The TV arrived today, and I’m going to hook it up tonight……….assuming something doesn’t go wrong, and with the way things have been going, that’s kind of assuming a great deal.  So if you read this, and it’s Thursday night, say a little prayer for me, or even give me a call.  I might enjoy the company.  Oh, and if you see me on World of Warcraft tonight, then I’m probably in a very bad mood.  (It probably means that things are not going well, and I’m giving up.  And if I’m giving up…well, then they must REALLY be bad.)  :)  L8er!

I’m currently drinking: Nothing…it’s only 4:13, after all.  But I’m hoping to be drinking some Kilt Lifter tonight.  HEE HEE!!!

Yes…but not because I posted twice. I just wanted to let you all know that I upgraded the blog software that I use just to take advantage of some of the new features, etc. Basically, just let me know if you notice anything weird about the blog and such. I like to know when things get screwed up.

Oh, I also changed the overall look and feel of the page. I liked the theme I was using, but for some reason it was messing with the dates, and some posts wouldn’t show the correct date. Expect this look and feel to change as I look for other themes I like. :)

Edit: Get used to the theme you’re looking at.  I like it the best, so far.  :)

So yes, I’m sick again. Those of you who have known me for any length of time know that this is not a big surprise. Seems like I’m sick a lot of the time. Seriously, this time I think my wife is to blame. She had to sub for a room of snot-nosed kindergartners (she hates when I say that), and now I’m sick. I have not had any contact with anyone who has been sick, and Kim has worked with me all week except for Friday. And now I’m sick. Poo on that.

What else is going on? Not a WHOLE lot. Working, coming home, playing World of Warcraft….yeah, that about sums it up. :) No, I’m not bored of it yet…in fact, the addiction has grown. I’ve got a friend from church who comes over once a month or so and plays on my wife’s account with me. It’s actually a lot of fun starting over, and this time I’m playing a priest. :) I haven’t played a priest before. :)

Our friend Erin is coming later this month, and we’re totally psyched about it. We miss her a lot, and when we don’t see her for too long, we go through Erin-withdrawals. :) So our Erin addiction will be soothed when she comes. :) YAY US!

I’m hungry right now….anyone have any nachos?

That sounds like a plan, doesn’t it?

There’s a lot going on, I think…it’s just that when I try to contemplate all that is going on, I get writer’s block. Does that mean God doesn’t want me to write about it? Am I putting too much thought into that?

Yesterday I started thinking about nightmares I used to have…these are the recurring type…not the type where you have it, and it stays with you forever. These are the ones where you start dreaming them, and in your dream you think, “Oh no…not THIS again”, but you’re still scared to death. I always wondered about that. Part of me in these dreams is completely aware that it’s a dream…but it doesn’t matter….the fear of death is still there that sets your pulse to racing and causes you to be breathless when you wake. Maybe it’s Tel’aran’rhiod. (Did I spell that right?) Most people will have no clue what that means.

1. The hospital bed nightmare - This was the nightmare I feared most for many years. I remember going to sleep some nights, thinking, “Deal Lord, I hope I don’t have the dream about the hospital bed.” Here’s what happens. I’m lying in a hospital bed, but it’s a very flimsy one…more like a gurney or something. There is only a pillow and white sheets on this bed…no blankets. Suddenly, I feel the pillow moving under my head. I jump off the bed, and it spins around. Suddenly, the pillow is like the top of a mouth, and it starts telling me it’s going to eat me. The rest of the night is me running through hospital corridors to escape this bed, which is never far behind. I would say that this dream explains my terror of hospitals, but I think it infinitely more likely that I dislike being reminded of my own frailty.

2. The log prison nightmare - This one was one I often had in the summer, as I recall. Basically, I’m in a lake. And I am surrounded by a log structure that is squarish in nature. Like a log cabin, but the logs have gaps in them. I look up, and the logs seem to go up forever. Suddenly, the water starts rising. I have no wish to drown, so I start to climb up the walls of this log structure, but when I get to the top, I see that there is a log roof that looks just like the walls. There are gaps between the logs, but there is no way I can fit through them. I look down, and the water is still rising. The water never went above my head, but I always thought that if it did, I would die in real life.

3. The slow motion nightmare - This is probably my all-time most scary nightmare, and I have no idea why. If you know me, I’m sure you could look at all kinds of things about my life and say, “Oh, I know where this one comes from.” Maybe you’re right. Maybe I’m just insane. This one is going to be hard to explain in text. Basically, in this dream I’m walking around living life. I’m not doing anything weird….I’m just going to school, hanging out at home. But here’s the difference….I’m doing everything at normal speed, but everyone else is in slow motion. And I don’t mean the kind of slow motion like when you slow down a recording….everyone’s voices sound normal….just slow. My family were often the slow ones in my dreams….my Uncle Dennis in particular….no idea why. Furthermore, looking back on all this, I have no idea why it was so terrifying. But I can tell you, I woke up crying every time in this dream….terrified to go back to sleep. I had this one for years and years, but it went away sometime before I moved from the home of my childhood on the west side of Modesto. I don’t ever remember having it at any of the other houses in which I have lived.

So that’s it…the exhaustive list of my recurring nightmares. There are other nightmares I could talk about that were scary, but these were the ones that came back again, and again. And they’re weird….this I know. Would you expect anything different from me? haha!